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    Friday, October 17th, 2008
    12:18 am
    I should be sleeping, but I can't.

    I've developed this new pain in my back that won't let me do so.

    There isn't much I can do at the moment. so I think I'll just listen to the bbc.
    Saturday, October 4th, 2008
    7:36 pm
    I had thought about what I would write for a long time. It’s not always easy for me to write just anything, I usually have to have a directive, a purpose to write. I think I found one, me. Writing just for me isn’t something I’m used to, and I have to force myself to do it.

    Today I went horseback riding with my friend Steve. We went to his parents house and saddled up the horses. The one I was on was a very gentile quarter horse by the name of Rookie. He responded very well to my novice handling, and I had a really good time on our 3 mile ride. Steve said I looked relaxed (I was), and that it seemed I had some natural talent. He was a HUGE horse in comparison to others I’ve ridden. I need to learn more about riding, and caring for horses as I hope to get one in the near future.

    I should probably look up horse laws in Oregon. Where you can ride, and whatnot.

    Being in the middle of farmland, corn fields to my left, and a grove of cattle to my right, it felt like heaven. Home. I felt at home up on the horse, in that field, the wind blowing, boots on my feet and this majestic creature who allowed me to ride him. It was simply amazing.

    I need to get BJ to try this, I think he would understand it more if he tried it. I don’t know, maybe I belong in Nebraska.

    Yesterday I went to the Omaha Zoo. It’s been over 10 years since I went to a Zoo, and this one was fantastic. The penguin house was very cool. Those birds may not be able to fly but then sure can swim fast!

    So as my latest work trip to the midwest winds to a close, I look forward to getting home and being in the arms of my husband.

    Maybe I should get a map and mark out where I’ve been, and where I want to go.
    Saturday, June 7th, 2008
    9:15 pm
    This end of the telescope
    I wait for it to happen. Something, anything, but I wait for it.
    The evening air is still, cold. Odd for sumner.

    The train isn't packed but the only sound is the childs babble from behind and the automated womans voice interspersed with the male Spanish voice.

    He looks pensive. Tired. He'll probably want to stay home tonight. Its ok, I expect it.

    John Cavnor
    Sent from my iPhone
    8:25 pm
    Fun with food

    3:48 pm
    Saturday, May 31st, 2008
    12:15 pm
    12:12 pm
    Tuesday, April 29th, 2008
    6:37 pm
    The things you find at the asian supermarket

    Monday, March 31st, 2008
    3:33 pm
    There is this guy in my office, I think his single biggest mission in life is to single handedly bring back the mullet.

    Goal today: drink 64 oz of water.

    John Cavnor
    Sent from my iPhone
    Saturday, March 29th, 2008
    6:11 pm
    Playing the Portland tourist.
    We spent the day roaming Portland and enjoying the sights.
    Crazy people are here too.

    Sunday, March 23rd, 2008
    6:04 pm
    Tuesday, March 18th, 2008
    7:21 pm
    Back to work
    I started back at my normal office today. There are a bunch of projects that I have to do, but it's all stuff I want to do. The last two weeks in phoenix had been fun and challenging, but bow its back to real life.

    Some problems at home need my attention, but I don't know when it will get the attention it needs. I honestly don't know which way things are going to turn out, mostly because I don't know how he feels.


    So I focus on work for the time being.

    John Cavnor
    Sent from my iPhone
    Monday, March 17th, 2008
    12:28 pm
    It's been a while since I've written so I'll give some short updates.

    BJ, Bella, and I moved from San Francisco (well Walnut Creek really) to Beaverton Oregon (It's Just west of Portland). I took a position within the company up there and we got moved. It's been quite a ride over the last couple months, and this one is proving to be no different.

    I started playing rugby this last fall, and I'm enjoying it. I played Hooker with the Fog in SF, but when we moved to Portland we connected with a team up here that is in a transitional state. I can honestly say that I don't know if the team is going to make it or not. We don't even get enough people showing up at practice to field one side. For those who don't know, you need 15 players to field a side, and 18 to play a proper game and have subs for when people get injured, or need a break.

    There are a few good people on the avalanche, but not enough commitment, or consistency from enough people to sustain an active club. The Fog has over 100 active members, and at any given practice we could count on at least 30 people showing up. Tho most of the time we would see more like 45. My first practice with the Avalanche we had just 7, and a burnt out assistant coach. I've never met the former head coach but I hear that she wasn't well liked.

    Both the head coach and the assistant have now left the club, leaving it without a leader. BJ stepped in as acting coach, but isn't getting the support from the board that he needs to continue doing so.

    Like I said, I'm not sure if this team is going to make it or not.

    I'm tired, and I wanna go home. I wish they would just let me board the flight and be done with it.
    9:58 am
    I miss my puppy. I can't wait to get home.

    Saturday, May 19th, 2007
    10:06 am
    The weather is nice today. Finally some blue sky, and perhaps it will be warm enough for me to wear shorts to work.

    I'm coping with a case of strep, as was BJ, but he ended up in the ER with a fever of 103.5 Ya, not fun.

    Checked in Wednesday morning, spent 5 hours in ER, then they moved him to a room. I took the day off from work, and went to urgent care myself, and was told it looked like I had strep. Great. Meds for me, and they're the kind that wipe me out. I went over the next morning to see him and went home and back to bed.

    Back to work today. Closing shift, I don't know what I work tomorrow. I'll find out when I get there today.

    Current Mood: blah
    Thursday, May 17th, 2007
    10:34 pm
    So. I'm home alone. BJ is sick and in the hospital for observation. I have the same thing he does, but my body is working on it better than his.

    Work is stating to grate on me. I need to find a new gig. Something that I can use my tech skills, and enjoy doing it. I guess I miss being around computers.. Hell I installed ubuntu linux on my mac Mini, and dual booted it with OS X. Made me happy to get it up and running. Now I am going to work on starting various services and getting a database server up and running.

    Anyone need a Mac tech with PC tech experience, and a corporate trainer mindset?


    Current Mood: annoyed
    Monday, April 30th, 2007
    3:36 pm
    So, in 10 days my name changes. Frist name stays the same, last name changes.

    It's kinda scary. Almost like my whole life is changing at once.

    What's next?

    Current Mood: weird
    Saturday, March 31st, 2007
    12:47 am
    old friends.
    It's been a while since I have written anything in here. A lot has been going on, but I had the strangest thought the other day.

    When Paul and I worked together, he once did this "black girl booty dance" for Kate in the back room to the song "Milkshake" by Kellis. I heard that play in the car the other day and had to pull over I was laughing so hard. When I finally was able to stop laughing, and while wiping the tears from my eyes, I thought of Paul.

    I kinda miss him. He was a very stable, kind, and generous person to be around.

    I wonder if he ever thinks of me?

    Current Mood: weird
    Monday, February 26th, 2007
    9:37 pm
    Gym Time....
    I made it to the gym today. I can feel that I'm going to be in pain tomorrow, and for that matter the next couple of days. I'm not sure that anyone else really understands the difficulty I have with this facet of my life.

    When I enter the gym, the person that I was at the door doesn't exist anymore. For some unknown reason I enter a state of being that isn't normal to me, and I don't rather like it. i become mousy, and really don't want to be there any longer than I have to. I don't feel comfortable, and I keep hoping that people will not look at me, talk to me, or notice I exist. The bigger issue might be just simple self esteem, i don't know.

    I realize that I'll never have the body I want. It's just a simple fact of genetics, lack of money, and time to put the required hours in at the gym. These guys who are there that are in great shape walk around like they own the place, thus furthering my own desire do shrivel up and shrink away. Perhaps I should just accept it, and stay out of such places. I was barely there 30 minutes today, and I couldn't even keep myself there a minute longer to shower, feeling like I should just stand in the rain and get wet.

    I hate this.

    Current Mood: frustrated
    Wednesday, February 7th, 2007
    6:33 pm
    Of DRM, Rain, and time to kill
    Spending some quality time alone today I came across a few things I felt I should comment on. Steve Jobs commented on DRM in the consumer space on Apple's website recently, and I found it interesting.

    He addresses the current state of things with regards to the RIAA, music, CD's, and illegal downloads. I don't differ too much with his findings, but do take issue with the fact that the RIAA has tried to put DRM on music CD's with craptacular results. More information on this can be found at sony's site, and how they had to pay people for the damage they did with the rootkit they put on the CD's.

    Amazingly enough, the best of the three options he lays out happens to be eliminating DRM all together. A move I support wholeheartedly. Would this stop me from buying songs or albums on iTunes? no. I actually see iTunes as a value added service in providing music. One I'm willing to continue to pay for. So what's the value of DRM? Nothing as far as I'm concerned. It costs us more than it saves. Consumers are limited in terms of what players they can use the purchased music on, and what they can do with the music they purchase legally. You actually have more options for use when you buy a CD and put it on your computer yourself, but honestly, I refuse to pay for something I'll just copy to my computer anyway. I don't want to have to store the media someplace in my house. Taking up space and collecting dust.

    It's just not worth it. DRM needs to take a HIKE.

    So, back to my rainy day outing. I've spent 4 hours in a coffee shop, and depleted my notebook battery. The person who works here, or rather one of them, asked me how I managed to stay working so long without a charger. I replied, "It's a Mac, they just work that way." And he said he'd have to look into it.

    Current Mood: depressed
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